What do I want?

I want to feel comfortable sitting in a room by myself. I want to feel free and and fearless. I want to experience each moment in my life as something to enjoy and learn from. I want this pain in my chest to teach me something. I want it to go away. I want to have an adventure. I want to feel courage in all that I do. I want to feel loved from within. I want to go big. I want to hold nothing back. I want to feel what it's like to be in love again. I want to sail on the ocean. I want to learn how to surf. I want to always be surrounded by cool people. I want to take a trip across the ocean. I want to witness, without any doubt in my mind, cocreation. I want faith in ideas that I've only been flirting with. I want amazement. I want to loose my breath only to bring it back in. I want a teacher. I want a guru. I want a lover. I want to want everything and nothing. I want discipline. I want to wait tables in Pa'ia. I want to live at a Dharma center. I want to smell the ocean and eat mangoes for breakfast. I want confidence.

Okay. Let's do it.